Friday, November 8, 2013

SADNESS

Sadness is...

- I wake up cold and restless on a couch, when I finally got adjusted to sleeping in your warm bed.
- Making myself cry thinking about having made you cry.
- I have to ask for a ride and walk everywhere, when you used to have me soaring.
- Still going to the gym to workout and never feeling weaker.
- Starting to look forward to work for the distraction, when you used to be my distraction from work.
- You show up in my worst nightmares instead of my sweetest dreams.
- Owning up to my mistakes and realizing how wrong and fearful I have been all along, for nothing.
- Upset that you never did anything, but love me.
- Nervous I will never eat a cookie again without thinking of my favorite one.
- I find out twice a week I didn't win the lottery, when I had hit the jackpot a long time ago.
- Crying knowing I have no one to blame, but myself.
- Knowing I need to act, when I keep thinking that I'll scare you away forever.

Heal us Jesus. I'm not afraid to work for it. For you. For me.



Thursday, November 7, 2013

THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE...

Please pray for me.

I've been through hell. I'm sucking down decaf coffee in Republic of Pie so I don't end up staying up all night. I haven't been able to sleep in a week. In the last 3 days my roommate assaulted me and we called the cops on each other, I totaled my car, and it's likely being crushed tomorrow, and I lost the greatest love of my life. To top it off I was so dazed thinking about all this as I walked to the gym, that I was almost hit by several cars wandering into rush hour traffic. A week ago I was the happiest I've ever been, only freaking out about flying to Brazil and e-baying toys. My home, my car, my heart, and almost my life were all taken from me, and It's only Thursday. Saturday I fight for my home, which now I kind of want to leave now and start over, all things considered. I honestly can't remember feeling this horrible in my whole life. And most of it was brought on by me (not the cops though... I defended myself). I don't know why I did this to myself. I know I will be happy again. I've been praying, and things will change, but you know, for better or worse, you get exactly what you deserve. I have some saved up good karma I really need to cash in. Fernando is the best friend of best friends. Nick asked me to stay close and Fernando hasn't left my side. To be able to see blessings in all this chaos is a miracle. I truly believe Nick's bent, not broken. His heart is much too big and much too powerful. I just miss is my cookie so much, Jesus. :( I will work hard and be patient and God will sort it out. My whole life has turned upside down.

Thanksgiving is a blessing, but I really need a Christmas miracle. Help me, Jesus. Please.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

My Wonder Woman


I've been writing my rendition of Wonder Woman for the last 9 months. Shocked I haven't drawn her so I did this little number over the Christmas holiday break. I'm really happy with it, mostly because I drawn it with no reference whatsoever. This is completely freehand, something I haven't done in like 25 years!


Tuesday, December 7, 2010

DC Universe Classics 2012 WISHLIST: WAVE 24


I always wanted a Doctor Psycho figure. Mattel introduced a 3-pack in the Green Lantern line and I now see an avenue to get a plastic version of this creepy little bastard. I'm pleasantly chcked how many Wonder Woman characters we got in DCUC. I still need Hippolyta, Steve Trevor, Dr. Psycho, Circe, Dr. Cyber, Angle Man, and Silver Swan for me to truly be ok (until I get greedier), but I am shocked at some of the great C and D-listers we got. Could use more.


DC Universe Classics 2012 WISHLIST: WAVE 23


This is arguably my brother's favorite assortment. He's been the biggest Batman fan in my life. He's been wanting the Four Horsemen to sculpt Robin in his Tim Drake incarnation, and Poison Ivy is the number 1 Bat-villain not done. I'd love for them to get a Super Powers Mr. Freeze going sooner than later. Ah well, any of these would be awesome. Now I want a Batmobile. And Forever People. Dammit.

DC Universe Classics 2012 WISHLIST: WAVE 22

This assortment would make so many people happy. Although wave 2 Aquaman is damn near perfect, I still want to lose the gold collar, fix the belt buckle and give him the Super Powers trident. Ocean Master and Mera are long overdue. Call me crazy, but I want the Fisherman now. Catman and Swamp Thing are also driving fwooshers nuts online. Mattel is either cranking these out too slowly or DC Comics have so many great characters. I think it's the latter.

DC Universe Classics 2012 WISHLIST: WAVE 21


Wave 21 looks great. This is NOT an actual list, just what I want. Proud of my choices. I added an A-Lister with double knees and elbows and some proper colors where necessary. And what is up with the lack of female figures? We should've had Elasti-Girl and Platinum by now, right?